Category: A Different Way
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Dream Journal: 2016-11-19.01
“Om mani padme hum.” Sometimes on my meditations, I slip sideways instead of staying in my own head. I’m still not able to hold position with a completely “empty” mind as my thoughts run off in every conceivable (and inconceivable) direction immediately. Focusing on the breath does help, but focusing on a mantra brings my…
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Spirit Journal: 2016-09-16.01
Watching a little sparrow dart among the legs of chairs and patrons in the outside seating area of the coffeeshop. It’s September. If this was a wilderness area, the first fruits would be ripening as the grains go to seed.
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Dream Journal: 2016-09-11.01
Dream snippet that won’t leave me until shared but I’m wary to post: “[Wizards] have to kill ourselves from time to time. If we don’t sow the harvest, the magic stops.” I’m concerned someone may take that quote as an exhortation for suicide and I’m not here for that.
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Spirit Journal: 2016-09-01.01
A traffic jam this morning meant taking side streets to work. Instead of a high speed nod of acknowledgement, I had a slow sashay past the memorial park that no longer resonates with me. Out of curiosity, I took advantage of the posted speed limit sign to drive slow enough to look sideways a little…
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Spirit Journal: 2016-08-27.01
The hillside spirit barely acknowledges my presence as I throw my Speed Limit + 10mph greeting out the window. (I’m still moving slow. The fast lane is usually cruised at SL+25.) Not surprisingly, really, as the crops under its guardianship are growing aggressively and the workers are often in the fields taking care of business.
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Four Little Words
I have been having a rough shit of a time these past several weeks. When depression is at an eleven, I go silent. Y’all have heard all my crying before, so why repeat the tune? Some days hours minutes it feels like I don’t even have the power nor the ability to breathe. All I…
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The Sanctuary of The Nine
Of those nine cards, eight have come to pass. And they’re right. I’ve been taking on too many +1 projects, tasks, and errands. The backwards run through the Tarot Deck of Major Doom has served as a cleaning of the slate and a welcome reset. All chasing of wild goose chases have ceased. Certain questions…
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Spirit Journal: 2016-07-13.01
The past is reaching. And touching. An album I first heard when deeply Christian came up on shuffle. I’ve bought it three times and threw it away twice from the exhortations of my church going peers. I ripped it, deleted the rip, and found I had the rip backed up in several spaces. While I…
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Spirit Journal: 2016-07-10.02
There are several years that I do not remember. When I try to review them, the scenes skip past like a high speed train. There is color. There is sound. There is movement. And not a damn detail. Terrible things happened to me in those blocks of years. I believe I chose to forget the…
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Spirit Journal: 2016-07-09.01
Last week, I spent 80 minutes sitting fifteen feet away from where a man spent the last four days of his life in agonizing, painful, and humiliating misery and excrement before dying two weeks to the day before my visit, and the room was as peaceful as a clean slate is bare. There wasn’t anything…