Because I selected the ten desires that would eventually become this month’s shoal sigil from the two lists of Want and Need, I assumed the desires would be complementary. The want of “Good Cheer” would feed “Work Support”, if all went according to plan, right?
And we all know how plans go once they meet the enemy are underway, right?
I have since learned that “Good Cheer” can actually undermine “Work Support” if applied in the wrong place, at the wrong time, by the wrong person. More contradictory is the desire for a bank account having accumulated a set amount of funds, and the desire for something I want but have been putting off because of lack of a set amount of funds.
Funds have been accumulating at a faster rate than budgeted because (a) increased income and (b) decreased expenditures. However, before I can hit that target level, I’m going to have to spend a good amount of it because if I don’t, and soon, my work may suffer for it.
My clothes don’t fit anymore!
For the past several years, I have been shrinking in size. The scales say I have actually gained weight in the interim, but the clothes that were dangerously tight at work are now too loose to wear to work. My daughter has been helping me track the changes because I don’t trust worn out cloth to give the same relative measurements over time and she has confirmed that I have lost more than my fears.
The weight of (all of) my keys in my pocket being enough to make my pants slip off my hips all day probably should have been enough information to make that call, to be honest.
So now I’m facing having to fulfill one of the ten desires, “New Fitting Clothes”, but at the expense of a larger savings account. Normally this would be worthy of a shoal sigil post update except for the timing and the amount of clothes that have suddenly become almost too big to wear to work.
Nearly a third of my tops and almost all the pants are too big. Two pairs of pants have suddenly become so loose on me, that if I take a step in any direction, the waistband is around my hips. A vigorous step leaves them on the floor!
But this is a problem that is literally years in the making. It’s not like I went from a size 18/20 to a high 14 in two weeks of time. And I knew for several months that I would have to let go of some money to replace my entire work wardrobe eventually anyway.
So did the shoal sigil aggravate the issue, or just bring it to the fore of my consciousness so that I cannot put off clothes shopping anymore? Either, both, one, or none. I won’t attempt to guess the how, only accept that here is where I am.
I can either have money, or I can have clothes that will help me make more money in the future.
And with a decision like that, it’s already made for me.