Anon inquired: “I know you keep emphasizing that Raven is not your totem. But from MY point of view, Raven is an important power to you. What happened in the Boneyard should show you that Raven has picked you for something. Why not skip Ravenwoman and go straight to Raven?”
Short answer: Because I don’t have enough information to make an informed decision with.
Long answer: Because I don’t know if this is Raven the Power pulling at me, Raven the animal pulling at me, or some mixed up mythos using Raven as its mask. I really don’t know. The exile from the Boneyard really shook me up and upended many assumptions. What happened after Ravenwoman pulled me back in shattered the rest.
Yes, I am taking on more appearance of a raven after being exiled. But I don’t know what that means. Am I doing this in a search for self-identity? Is this another hoodwinking trying to get me to become blindly loyal to something else? There are no ravens where I live, only crows. What power am I connecting to, and how?
There’s too many questions I need answers to.
In the mean time, I have what I have, and I’m able to work with it. And that’s enough for me.