Bits and pieces from last night:
- O Dionysus! You’ve been monitoring my ass for so damn long, but I never knew. It’s only now that I have learned some things, and unlearned some other things, that I can see you peeking from the shadows of my memory. You engage with people how they engage you. To those that see you only as the god of wine, you’re the label on the bottle. To those that see you as the happy rotund playa’, you are the Lord of Animal House. To those that seek the labyrinth, you are the Minotaur. But you are so much more. So much. The answer is still ‘No.’. But then again, it’s never been the destination between us, it’s always been the chase. Io Bacchus! Lord of Mysteries!
- Snake asked me was I sure about accepting “Raven-Daughter” as a moniker. He was unusually severe. “You’ll change, you know. You won’t be the same. You won’t recognize what you’ll molt into. Neither will your friends and family in the Waking. You’ll lose what you are now.” I know. “And still you wish this death?” Fuck fear. Fuck chains. Fuck allowing others to define me because of their fear. I shall be me. The caterpillar dies to become the butterfly. The bolt of cloth dies to become the robe. The paper dies to become a story. Why should it be any different with me? He lowered his head in acceptance, but could not hide the smile. He led me to a fire where the all the worlds were waiting, and watching. “Commit.” And I did.
- Still didn’t see the Svartalf. But he knows. I don’t know how I know he knows, but he knows.
- A Great Darkness is devouring me, starting from the feet. Those portions that disappear into the world rending mouth just cease to be. There is no pain. Only contentment. This must come.
- If the City is the focus for human dreaming, what happens to the City once humanity is gone? Is that what happened to the Necropolis? The Caretaker watched over his city while the denizens slept, but when they all died at once, his city became a catacomb. As long as the Necropolis exists, so does the Caretaker. Is that the Envoy’s fate? This is what I get for listening to Enigma while distracted. I know I get all existential and sheet while listening to Enigma. But still…