“I’m not ready.”
“I know.”
“I have to come to grips with this.”
“I know.”
“I’m so sorry I’ve kept you waiting.” ~deep breath to keep from crying~ “This is not a first, but it’s personal as fuck.”
“I know.”
“I think I know what to do. How to follow through. It feels like I’ve already done it and I’m just coming to grips with it.”
“I know.”
“But I can’t do it now. I need to be deeper, more here. And currently I’m in the coffeehouse.”
“I know.”
“But I’ll leave a piece of me here, so later tonight, it will be easier for me to return here.”
“I’ll be waiting.”
…
I will not cry. I will not cry. I will not…
~deep breaths~