Tag: Enchantment

It took awhile for me to realize another way I had been sabotaging myself and the shoal sigil. One person’s cheer is another person’s sorrow, and I had been so worried about giving the more unpleasant people at work something to be cheerful about, I neglected to give myself something to be cheerful about. The…

Because I selected the ten desires that would eventually become this month’s shoal sigil from the two lists of Want and Need, I assumed the desires would be complementary. The want of “Good Cheer” would feed “Work Support”, if all went according to plan, right? And we all know how plans go once they meet…

Coffee. Yoga. A hard struggle against depression again. It’s one thing to face the monster you know, it’s another to face the actions of those you thought you could trust. I wish I could say that my observations are too deeply flawed because I know I’m in a depressive pit again, but experience has taught…

Coffee. Yoga. It’s a familiar routine that is only slightly altered by including the drawing of the shoal sigil before each step.

I’m not saying I was up to no good, I’m saying I left my comfort zone behind in bed while I spent the day doing one of the very things I said would never happen again for reasons that I still consider temporary insanity. Once again, that enlightenment can hurry the fuck up and happen…

Another frantic day at work. Another day where the shoal sigil took care of itself for me. Feedback regarding support at work came to me in yet another new and novel method. The director of landscaping asked to speak with me for a few minutes. “You’ve been going on exercise walks at lunch, right? Well,…

The day went as the day did. Coffee and yoga in the morning. Something edible for lunch. An evening ending with tasks marked for the next day. All of it far too fast. I am reminded why I encoded work support as one of the shoal sigil’s goals. It was a day filled with private…

Last year in January I put together some targets for a shoal sigil. Some were realistically attainable. Some would only come about as a result of a then unrealistic collection of funds. By February, I had declared the experiment a complete disaster. I was unable to keep up with the schedule and by the middle…

Coffee… good. I skipped out on some opportunities to fire the shoal sigil for an extra burst of “good cheer” at work, and work went as I could expect for it. But I did that on purpose, as one person’s cheer is another person’s misery. Enforcing boundaries sometimes means pissing people off.

When I drew the shoal sigil over my coffee, it wasn’t for the confirmation that I was safe for human interaction had my daily coffee, it was for establishing the goal of working towards That Thing I Want™ the focus for the day. The same for when I did my morning yoga, when I greeted…