According to my much revised schedule, I should have had at least four sigils entered into the mini-book and much more dramatic effects to report by now. Instead I have three sigils entered, and I find myself consciously bucking the most active of them.
I’m still marking the effort as a success even though there are four more days left to observe and record.
I have to remind myself that not only is magic not always flashy, intense, or dramatic, but that magic is often an attempt to do something contrary to what is considered normal, regular, and expected.
That’s not consoling me much today.
The time-management seal is making it very clear that not only do I suck at prioritizing work, but that my job’s absolute lack of boundaries (and coworker’s respect) means I’m at the mercy of whoever wants to come into my office and complain about things I am unable to help them with.
The SATOR Square’s assistance with fear helps me face the suddenly restructured aftermath of the day without collapsing into a puddle of anxiety but its passive nature is doing nothing to prevent it.
The shoal sigil, now (re)made physical form, is a gentle influence that is hardly noticed after the coffee is gone when my office is invaded and my productivity is hijacked.
I would love to throw more magic at the problem but it all feels like I’m just putting occult themed bandages on a deep and painful sore.
It’s going to take more than pretty lines in a folded paper to fix this one. And I have no idea how to start.
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2 responses to “Do Magick December ’18: Day 26 – Disappointment”
Occult-themed bandages, indeed!
It sounds like you need a diptych rather than a book; on one side the seal of time-management to face you; and on the other side a boundary-establishing seal to keep visitors out before they come in. It’s ironic that you need the support of both malefics — Saturn for the boundary-keeping and Mars for the nose-to-grindstone — but also not surprising.
I would think that you could use a square-in-circle for the boundary-keeping seal. A black outer line and a green inner line for the circle, and a red line for the square within it. Around the edges of the square could be the line from psalm 118:22: the stone which the builders rejected has become the chief corner stone.
I kind of doubt that this talisman will keep people from rudely entering your office or workspace unannounced or uninvited. And it may not prevent interruption at first. But to be chief of the corner is to be a key part of the public face of the organization — and it means that you will be able to say, gently, “the work I’m doing now is higher priority than your task. Go do it yourself…” or alternately, “this interruption aligns with my sense of my leadership role within this organization. Yes, I can do this.”
When I’m near tools again after January 3, I’ll try making this seal the way I envision it.
[…] Thirty days ago, my plan was to burn the mini-book to ashes after the challenge was complete to rid myself of any undesired consequences that installed themselves. Now, I’ll be keeping the mini-book in my wallet while exploring Andrew Watt’s suggested companion to the time-management seal. […]