When I drew the shoal sigil over my coffee, it wasn’t for the confirmation that I was safe for human interaction had my daily coffee, it was for establishing the goal of working towards That Thing I Want™ the focus for the day. The same for when I did my morning yoga, when I greeted clients with well-practiced cheer, when I had any spare moment, really.
I wasn’t sure how I was going to go about actually getting That Thing I Want™ because I still hadn’t settled on the shape of That Thing I Want™. Besides, the shop that last made the previous version of That Thing I Want™ has stopped doing so, so not only did I have to decide what I wanted it to be, but find where I was going to get it from.
During a moment when I was supposed to be obsessing over document margins and style aesthetics, I was suddenly filled with an overwhelming need to check my social media apps. The need was almost embarrassing, with the same intensity has having to go to the bathroom.
Fine. I guess. Lemme take five and skim recent posts.
Oh look, it’s that shop I like. “[Hey, I have enough to make a couple of Those Things You Want™, but I need to know if there’s any interest in it.]”
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Holy shit!
I immediately replied with my intense interest. I haven’t heard any more about it yet. I know better than to consider the matter resolved. As far as I’m concerned, the matter is in focus.
One of the other goals bundled into the shoal sigil has shown an increased likelihood of coming to pass. But the direction the boon is arriving from is through the hands of someone I much rather not have any influence or input from. I’m going to have to decide which do I want to hold on to, the goal or the grudge.
I am continuing to refrain from drawing the shoal sigil over my bed for “Restful Sleep”. I’m in a stage in certain other shenanigans where it is crucial that I pay attention to my dreams, and if I sleep too well, then those dreams come and go without any lucidity.