Category: Magic Diary

It is good that I keep my alarm clock out of literal arm’s reach at night. I think I would have put an unplanned ventilation port in the wall otherwise. Why. The Hell. Did I plan to get up before dawn on a Saturday? As I move the shopping and action list off the alarm clock…

Friday came and went without anything spectacular happening, for good or for ill. I had a big personal project coming up the next day and my thoughts were out of sync with the calendar because of it. Morning coffee and yoga still carried the sigil’s momentum for the day. I finally accepted that the (very)…

Before the shoal sigil, coffee, and yoga, the first thing I did was greet the first decan of Cancer. It has now been six months since my daughter and I moved out of a bad situation into a then unknown situation. It’s been good, despite the ups and downs, it’s been very good.

It took awhile for me to realize another way I had been sabotaging myself and the shoal sigil. One person’s cheer is another person’s sorrow, and I had been so worried about giving the more unpleasant people at work something to be cheerful about, I neglected to give myself something to be cheerful about. The…

Because I selected the ten desires that would eventually become this month’s shoal sigil from the two lists of Want and Need, I assumed the desires would be complementary. The want of “Good Cheer” would feed “Work Support”, if all went according to plan, right? And we all know how plans go once they meet…

Coffee. Yoga. A hard struggle against depression again. It’s one thing to face the monster you know, it’s another to face the actions of those you thought you could trust. I wish I could say that my observations are too deeply flawed because I know I’m in a depressive pit again, but experience has taught…

Coffee. Yoga. It’s a familiar routine that is only slightly altered by including the drawing of the shoal sigil before each step.

I’m not saying I was up to no good, I’m saying I left my comfort zone behind in bed while I spent the day doing one of the very things I said would never happen again for reasons that I still consider temporary insanity. Once again, that enlightenment can hurry the fuck up and happen…

Another frantic day at work. Another day where the shoal sigil took care of itself for me. Feedback regarding support at work came to me in yet another new and novel method. The director of landscaping asked to speak with me for a few minutes. “You’ve been going on exercise walks at lunch, right? Well,…

The day went as the day did. Coffee and yoga in the morning. Something edible for lunch. An evening ending with tasks marked for the next day. All of it far too fast. I am reminded why I encoded work support as one of the shoal sigil’s goals. It was a day filled with private…