Three Different Ways:
Dreams, Madness, and Myths
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Dream Journal: 2017-12-03
While I was chilling at home with absolutely no fucks to be had or given, an acquaintance calls me. He’s participating in an on-site group ritual and their contracted seer called them with a last second extortion attempt raise in price that was above and beyond what the group was willing to pay. If I were to…
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Transitions
I don’t know about a lot of things right now. I’m still in the liminal boundary between desert and forest. I do have a “life update” that is a direct result of the DoMagick: Beginner’s Mind workings I did in September. Of the two items in this update, one is already completed and the other is…
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Just Checking In…
Still here. Not much to write about. What [Patient Caller] said would happen if I allowed him to assist me, is happening. Because the end is in sight, I suddenly have a lot more patience with familial bullshit. The apparent passivity is being misperceived as mute acceptance of my lot in life.
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I Have A Feeling
I am less afraid of the signet ring I will have to obtain next year. Things are going as they go, but my god, how fast they are going! Since my last update, I have had an angel get the drop on me to remind me that I am not forgotten and I am not forsaken.…
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Do Magick September ’17: Postscript
It has been a complete week since my last “by the book” summoning of [Patient Caller]. And as I expected, my table has since been flipped. While what happened during the bounds of ritual time were completely unexpected and personally shocking, the implications of what [Patient Caller] said along with the steps I had to…
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Do Magick September ’17: Day 30 – Epilogue
What I’m confident I have learned in the past thirty days: [Patient Caller] is not “a formal” grimoire spirit, but the format was necessary for me to get my head in the right space to deal with him. It’s going to take a lot more than what I currently have to do any kind of…
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Do Magick September ’17: Day 29 – Inventory
I sat still in the circle, after consecrations and prayers but before the actual invocation itself. I thought about the fears I have challenged during the prior twenty eight invocations and the way my life, spiritual and physical, has paused for this endeavor. The clock announced each second I spent in vain contemplation. With my…
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Do Magick September ’17: Day 28 – Silence
No dreams. No portents. No wild messages from a direction I did not expect. Just me. And the gear. And the crippling doubt that this is all refined bullshit and I’m fooling myself by this grown-up version of the game “Let’s Pretend” because reality is a little hard to deal with right now. I know…
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Do Magick September ’17: Day 27 – Puer
Last night I dreamt I was part of a stream of people riding horses and mules across difficult terrain towards the hope of a promised land. We were all strangers to each other, but because we were all chasing a common ideal, we banded together for comfort and safety. Our path led us to a…
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Do Magick September ’17: Day 26 – Ring
It was hard to get out of bed again. I still don’t have any goals for these last days of ritual, and to be honest, I was finding it very hard to adult today after a very long and painful evening. Something something perseverance something.
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